Enjoying God
I'm sure that most of you know this about me all ready, but I'm a fairly cynical person. I like to call it being honest and authentic, but as I really reflect on it, it's mostly the unwillingness to allow myself to be excited about anything because of a nervousness that I'll somehow be let down. The students at my church always say that Aaron will hype everything, but Jeff will tell you if it's really going to be any good. I'm mostly pretty happy about who I am, but a small part of me often wishes I could be as positive and as excited about things as Aaron is. I'm realizing though that in my Christian life this cynicism has often caused me to miss out on some amazing things. My natural response when I'm confronted with an emotional experience is to assume that it's manufactured and that somehow I'm being manipulated and so I immediately turn my back on it because I don't want to be forced anywhere. There have been times in my life where I...